Unanswered Questions

Tell me my holy Father,

Why is it that,

The one who reaps the harvest,

Often goes to bed hungry?

Tell me my holy Father,

Why is it that,

The one who safeguards the country,

Is never really safe?

Tell me my holy Father,

Why is it that,

The one who builds with bricks,

Never really lives in a mansion?

Show me my holy Father,

The truth, The justice

That these humble menfolk,

Who have their hunger appeased,

Who live in mansions, safe and sound,

Often speak of.

Tell me my holy Father

How is it that,

The Godess is still blindfolded,

Living in her own world of disillusion,

That justice prevails in this world,

And that everyone are weighed equal,

Just like the two pans in her balance

If not all these my holy Father,

Tell me atleast this my Lord,

Why is it that,

These questions are always left unanswered?

Stepping Stones

I landed in Bangalore on 7^th March in high hopes of cracking the much hyped mu-sigma interview for the business analyst post. The job is reputed to be the perfect platform for freshers eying an MBA degree at some point in the future, as it is acclaimed to be a gem in any aspiring MBA graduate’s profile. The company visited our campus in December last year for an on-campus recruitment drive but unfortunately those of us who already have a job offer in hand were not allowed to attend the interview due to downturn in the job market. Some of us who desperately wanted the opportunity of an interview with the company, applied for the off-campus drive at Bangalore. We were shortlisted to appear for the written test on 9^th of March and that’s the story of how I ended up in Bangalore on 7^th March.

Although I was quite tensed about the interview I was confident that I would comfortably clear the written test. The only things to watch out for, I thought, are the next four rounds-the group discussion, video-synthesis and two other rounds of personal interview. Finally, when the most awaited day dawned I was cool and confident, wrote the test with a cool head and came out with a positive attitude about clearing the test. After a 45 minute wait the results were out and to my utter shock and surprise my name didn’t appear in the selected list. For a moment I couldn’t believe this and went through the list again hoping that they accidentally skipped reading my name. But no, they didn’t. For five minutes or so I was quite disappointed and couldn’t think of anything else. But then I convinced myself that whatever happened, happened for the best. I always believed in Paulo Coelho’s words in ‘The Alchemist’, that when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. But I also believe that when this doesn’t happen it only means that what we wanted is not what we needed. It is not ours and it was never meant to be.

I consider this failure a huge stepping stone towards my future as I have learnt some valuable lessons from this experience. The candidates were actually shortlisted based on how accurate they are and not on how many points they scored. This for me is the biggest takeaway lesson from this experience. At every point in life one needs to be accurate and fully confident in taking decisions with every possible consequence carefully considered rather than throwing stones in the dark. Of course sometimes in life we also need the guts to take risks, calculated risks at that, but that is an entirely different story. So for now the biggest lesson that I learnt is that clear and calculated decisions govern our lives. The decisions need to be either a yes or a no, in the sense that one should have a perfect clarity over one’s stance in anything. Most often than not it is the “maybe” that lands us in trouble. For some this might be too big a philosophy for too small an incident. I think philosophies are not about how big or small an incident or its impact is but are a way of life. It’s something that you follow in your everyday life and it’s something that defines you. With a good lesson learnt from this failure I hope to stride forward into the future with increased confidence and certainty.

The Girl Within

                1st October, 2012...the most awaited day in my life (at least until now). I attended my first job interview and was eagerly waiting for the results. Exactly at 3:30 in the noon i knew I was going to work for TCS for at least the next 2 years. What a wonderful moment! But then came the worst part. I knew I had a job in my hand with at least 8 months to go before I graduated with a B.Tech degree. Life suddenly became terribly boring, not that I had nothing to do but simply because nothing that I had to do interested me anymore. It might sound really strange but I've never been a conventional B.Tech grad student that one might envision to be. I prefer to be more of a writer than a techie for a simple reason like outright passion. So why a B.Tech and not a B.A you ask. Well, I did have my plans but then as always destiny had its plans too and it wins! No regrets though. Everything happens for a reason, I believe. And all this long, rather boring description of mine is just a roundabout way of telling that I'm bored to death and here I am doing what I always love to do, even in my crappiest moment, writing!
                 Before starting this blog I was rather confused about what this actually should be about. After much thought I decided it would about me reacting to the people and situations around me, it would be about the world as I see it, you know more like a freelance journalist type. Okay now I'm making it sound too serious and to be honest even I was quite overwhelmed and frightened at the seemingly highly responsible idea. But then I thought "Hey relax! It's not like I'm writing for a big news agency or something". So lets just say it's a lighter take on things although occasionally it might get serious. At least I hope so, because somewhere in the future I would be totally happy being the editor of some famous newspaper. Okay now you think I'm being cheeky but hey, that's originally me and that my friends is the girl within!
                 Hoping to be back soon with a good post. Have a good day!

Yours Originally,
Pratyusha